Miss Little Town

Bride-to-be: Bridesmaids's Gifts

2012-01-27T11:11:00.002+08:00

I can finally strike off bridesmaids' dresses in my wedding to-do list. It took us 2 days to finally find the right ones. Yay! I've already sent out some packages, 2 more to go. Let's get excited ladies! ^__^

Love while you can and don't forget to be a part of your loved ones' wonderful memories. ^__^

Bride-to-be: Rainbow bridesmaids

2012-01-20T13:49:00.001+08:00

Personally, a wedding (and also a marriage) is a community project. It's utterly meaningless without the important people in your life. Albert and I have decided to have all our very very best friends to be the bridesmaids and the groomsmen. Excited! ^__^

I have chosen 4 friends who have been with me through my ups and downs, through my break-ups and make-ups, keeping all my secrets, to some stupid secrets to the darkest ones. These are the girls that have never failed to offer their help and shoulders to cry on and laughter to share.

Knowing that they are of different backgrounds and attitudes, I have opted for different colours and designs for each bridesmaid. I want them to feel pretty and still be able to express themselves. Forcing the ladies to fit into ugly dresses and colours is a big NO-NO. =.= Can't wait! ^__^

Love while you can and keep friends close to your heart. ^__^

Bride-to-be: Happy colours.

2012-01-19T16:24:00.003+08:00

Burden was totally lifted up when Lydia (Albert's brother's wife / future sister-in-law) said that she was willing to help with the wedding planning. Yay! ^__^ The first thing she asked was the theme for the big day. I thought for a while and the first two things that came to mind were candies, bubble gums and marshmallows.I googled the images for these two and found a few pictures that I like.

I know these are the perfect colours because they make me happy just looking at them. Awwwwww.... *teary eyes*

Love while you can and don't forget to enjoy the ride while you are on the way to the destination. ^__^

Bride-to-be: Pre-wedding dress.

2012-01-16T10:33:00.003+08:00

As you can see on the Daisypath wedding day counter on the right of this blog, you'll see that there are only 5 months plus left before the big day. *gasps* Honestly, we're still a little bit clueless about all this wedding thingy but we've been praying hard for wisdom to pull this thing off together, and we are so thankful that friends and families have been very helpful throwing ideas and helping with the wedding. *teary eyes*

So, my lovely readers, please be patient and bear with me because for these 5 months and so, most of the time I will blog about the wedding preparation and most of the time will be asking opinions from you.

Help me? ^__^

At first, Albert (the fiance, eceh2) didn't plan to have pre-wedding photos because we suck big time when it comes to pose 'romantically' if you know what I mean. However, the wedding photographer offered a very very very good and promising package that we just couldn't resist. ^__^ So, we finally decided to have one, PROVIDED that we do a simple and sweet photoshoot, meaning, no fancy-fancy dresses or the likes. Gosh, I'm such a boring bride-to-be... =_=

Any wedding websites or blogs you want to recommend?

Love while you can. ^__^

Bride-to-be: Capturing Memories.

2012-01-12T13:20:00.001+08:00

The first thing that I looked for when I knew that the wedding bells were ringing, was WEDDING PHOTOGRAPHER. I'm obsessed with wedding photos. Even when wedding was not in my dictionary before, I spent my free afternoons browsing wedding photos. They somehow make me happy. ^__*

I actually called a few photographers outside of Kuching because I thought we had not-so-talented local photographers. You know what? I was proven wrong! ^__*

Radina, my colleague (picture below) told me about this amazing, super amazing Kuching photographer that she was using for her wedding. I checked out the Facebook page (please click!) and I.FELL.IN.LOVE.WITH.IT.RIGHT.AWAY!

I believe that he has these eyes that can really capture the moment, he's like the next Anna Rina Rahim! ^__^

As you can see, most of his clients are Muslims (akad nikah and persandingan) and we will be the rare non-Muslims clients that they will have and we're going to have ours in a church and another wedding reception. I told the photographer about it, he said he will give his best shot. I can't wait! ^__^

So far I think he has one of the best portfolios, no exaggerated editing, natural and creative.

Any idea on what should we do for the wedding photos? ^__^

Love while you can and capture every sweet moment that makes you smile when you grow old and wrinkled.

What do I want to achieve in 2012?

2012-01-09T15:05:00.001+08:00

Oh wait, before that, let's review whether I have achieved what I had written down in my 2011 wishlist. ^__^

1. Be a giving person

- Partially achieved! ^__*

2. Be more financially-wise

- I read a few books on money management and start saving. Well, I've started a few years ago but I didn't really monitor what's going in and what's going on, at least I do now. ^__^

3. Respect my body more

- I've ditched some revealing and inappropriate outfit knowing that my body is a temple of God. That's humbling enough. ^__^

4. Be focus at work - less texting / FB-ing

- I'm more focused at work now compared to the previous year. In return, more tasks can be done and the downside? Also less photo updating online. =.=

5. Be wise in relationship department

- Wow! This one, I can say, is the highlight of the year. Single in 2010, I got myself a boyfriend in 2011 and engaged in the same year, and planning to get married in 2012. How much better can it get? ^__^

6. Do one part-time job

- I did 2 part-time jobs actually. One is emceeing and another one proofreading. Yay! ^__^

7. Save up for overseas trips

- Went to Jakarta!

8. Girly vacation - Langkawi

- Postponed.

9. Two-piece bikini

- I no longer want to have this in wishlist. *tosses away*

10. Buy a guitar

- I suddenly realized that I don't really need one. *tosses away*

To conclude my 2011, I had one amazing year. One thing I learned in 2011 is to let go and let God. I learned to rely on God 100% and to walk with Him ALL THE TIME. It was hard at first because I didn't really trust Him in making some decisions in my life. You know what, once I let Him be the Master of my life, I have never looked back and I keep moving forward. Nobody can stop me. ^__^

When I look at my 2011 goals, I had too many in my list that I forgot some of them throughout the year. So for this year, 2012, I just stick to 5 goals. There you go. ^__^

I'm thanking God everyday for His blessings and never He had given less. ^__^

Have you achieved yours?

Love while you can.

Engaged.

2012-01-06T14:20:00.000+08:00

Jeweller: Do you want to carve your names on the ring?
E: Sure.
A: My name on her ring, her name on my ring.
Jeweller: Sure. Do you want to add anything else? Like the wedding date, etc. ?
E: No, names would be fine.

A & E went out of the jewellery shop.

A: Why don't we just carve the date, our hobbies, makanan kegemaran, minuman kegemaran, motto kehidupan, yada yada yada yada...
E: ........................................................

And yes, we are finally engaged! Yahooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! ^___^ Honestly, it was seriously tiring, I didn't even have time to do my make up and hair, everything was wash and go. But you know what, we are more than blessed. We were so blessed in one way or another. We can never repay how people around us have blessed us with their presence, support and prayers. ^__^

Today, it's exactly 6 months before our BIG DAY. We are already planning and booking things for the BIG DAY. As we've said before, it's a community project and we want YOU to be a part of it.

We are thanking God everyday for His wonders and blessings. Thanks to those who have supported, wished and prayed for us. You are first loved by Him. God bless.

Love while you can. ^__^

The reason for celebration

2011-12-22T13:39:00.002+08:00

I'm going home to my little hometown very soon, so I guess it's not too early to wish all of you a Merry Christmas. Christmas is a meaningful occasion for most of us. Personally, it's important for me because the world is meaningless without Christ, and He was born to this earth because He knew what we need most - LOVE & FORGIVENESS.

I am humbled by how great God is, nothing compares to what He has done on the cross, for I know whatever I have now it's not because of me but because of Him alone. I have nothing to be proud of but Him.

"and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no guest room available for them." Luke 2:7

As we are busy with our lives, with the preparations, with so many things, let's take some time and some room for Him in our hearts, for He is King, He is the Father, He is the Saviour and most importantly, He is LOVE. Have you got LOVE today? ^__^

Christmas Band Performance at The Hills Shopping Mall, Kuching

A random take which ended up as a Christmas wish on FB. LIKE!

"For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace."

Isaiah 9:6

Oh, by the way, love while you can, stay calm and cool in the midst of chaos and hatred. Ignore negativity, absorb positivity and don't forget to stay awesome! ^__^

Live Performance

2011-12-16T18:52:00.000+08:00

Missing some Christmas numbers? Come join us. ^__^

Date : 17 December 2011 (Saturday)

Time: 7.30 - 9.30 p.m.

Venue: The Hills Shopping Mall, Kuching (Next toPullman Hotel)

What can you expect tomorrow evening? Me singing, the BF drumming and awesome choir team from the D'Victorious youth.

See you there! Oh right, love while you can. ^__^

Christmas

2011-12-12T15:45:00.000+08:00

December is my favourite month! Why? Because it's Christmas, of course. Yay! While waiting for my students for an assessment, I made these childish Christmas tree cut-outs as my office deco (konon) to uplift the spirit. ^__^

The next day I came to office, everything fell of. Deco failed big time. *sigh* T____T

Kee Man had just come back from his international conference in Korea and got us this. One for me and one for Heartbeat, yay! Suka! ^__^

By the way, are you free this saturday evening? 17 December 2011? Come, join us at The Hills, Kuching. We are going to perform some classic Christmas numbers. If you are free, do drop by, ok?

Have a holy jolly Christmas people! Love while you can. ^__^

Of proposal.

2011-12-08T13:26:00.001+08:00

A few months after we dated, Heartbeat popped up 'THE QUESTION'. At first, he casually asked me, "Wanna marry me?", I answered, "Are you serious?", "Ya, of course. You want to? ", then I answered, "Of course I want to!", then he smiled. But in my heart, I seriously thought he was joking, even if it was serious, maybe it will happen in 3-4 years time. As quoted from him, "Maybe I'll get married when I'm 30" when I asked when he planned to settle down.

Then, he had this habit of writing "Marry me?" all over my books. Then I asked him, "Are you proposing?", then he would answer, "I am, will you?", as usual I laughed.

I knew that he was serious when he asked the possible date for the engagement. We suggested a few dates. It was supposed to be end of next year somewhere in December, then it changed to July next year, then it changed to January next year, then the final say? End of this month. *gasps* The reason? Why wait? ^__^

I am going to be someone's fiancee end of this month! Woooohoooo!!! How super cool is that! ^________^

You know that girls always have this dream where the man comes kneeling before the girl, then the girl puts both of her hands covering her mouth with tears and all, then suddenly the man takes out a small box, he opens it then there it is, the ring of the rings, shining brighter than the sun, when suddenly the man says, "Darling, will you marry me?" Then, the girl is speechless for a minute, then again tears in her eyes, kneels together with the man and suddenly nods her head with shaky voice saying, "Yes! Yes! Yes!", then they kiss, a very long and passionate and wet kiss, then they exchange "I love you"s.

DANG! That didn't happen.T______T

One night inside his car...

Summer: Aren't you going to propose to me?
Heartbeat: I did.
Summer: When? You mean when you wrote down 'marry me?' in my books and asked me to marry you the other day?
Heartbeat: Yes.
Summer: No, that's not proposing!
Heartbeat: What is?
Summer: You know that you should buy a ring first, put it inside a small box, kneel in front of me and pop that question, that is proposing. Like the one in TV.
Heartbeat: Eh? *silent* You want to marry me or not?!
Summer: I WANT!
Heartbeat: Then, LET'S GET MARRIED LA!
Summer: ............................ *laughs hysterically*

Thinking about it, why do we have to make a big fuss about the proposal and all? Gosh, I love my boyfriend. *__^

So 2 months before the engagement, he went to Kapit to 'meminang', ALONE! *gasps* Normally, a man would bring like a whole troop or the whole village to meet the family, but being a gentleman he really is, he came alone asking for my hand for marriage from both of my parents. The sweetest thing. ^__^

It was the most nerve wrecking moment ever, but it went well. Praise God. ^__^ Today, I finally decided to share the moment with you as the journey is about to start soon, very soon, and I would want YOU to be a part of it. Come? ^__^

Finally, let me leave you with some of my fave photos of him drumming. *melts*

Next week is the ring shopping, can't wait to share with you. ^___^

Love while you can like really love while you can.

Looking back at life.

2011-12-01T17:26:00.001+08:00

It's December now, how time flies. It's towards the end of 2011 and this is the best month to reflect on what had happened throughout the year. When I look back at my own life, when I reflect the many events that had happened, I am amazed at how things have changed, at how my goals have changed, at how myself has changed.

I believe that I have grown to a more matured woman with new vision and goals, with new mentality and even with new strength. Things that may look impossible a few months ago, now are proven possible. Life is a miracle itself, don't you think so?

The highlight of 2011 is I must admit the relationship I have with Heartbeat. People may think I am stupid for having a nickname for my love of life, but heck who cares, don't you have your own nicknames for your loved ones too? If your boyfriend's name is Mohamad Kamarudin, won't you be calling him 'Honey' or 'Sayang'? Don't tell me you call him Mohamad Kamarudin. Well no, Heartbeat is not Mohamad Kamarudin.Whoever Mohamad Kamarudin out there, please take note that your name is for illustration purpose only. *wink*

Nobody is perfect and we are no exception. There are flaws in me, so is in him. There are times when we can't tolerate each others' weaknesses, but I'm glad we take our time to sit down and talk and let our hearts out. We bring out each others' strengths and work on polishing them. I'm glad that we actually hold on to what we have and keep reminding each other of the wonderful things that await us in the future. I am learning, he is learning, we are both learning.

Then, family. I am more than blessed to have a second family here in Kuching, his family that I can call family too, seeing that my own family is so far away. When I was so sick, I can always snuggle under the blanket with his family around, when I want home-cooked meals, I can always rely on his family. When I want to feel 'at home', his home is where I am heading. It's a blessing,

I still remember one night I was crying, not because of sadness but I was so happy to have such a 'family', I thanked him. But more than that, I thanked God, because He knows what I need the most.

There are times when I feel helpless in life that I feel like giving up, but Heartbeat keeps reminding me of the things ahead of me, I'm revived. My journey with God has been a tough one, I have neglected Him so many times in my life, even now I still do, forgive me dear Lord.

2011 has almost come to its end, I can't wait for the great things in store for us in 2012. The post seems so melancholy, blame the rain outside. It has been a very gloomy day but inside my heart, I'm at peace.

Love while you can. ^_^

Lessons learned.

2011-11-24T16:16:00.001+08:00

I'm half a zombie now since I have not had proper rest for the past 2 weeks, and next week I'll still be bogged down by work. And the week after more tasks are coming in.T__________T

Blame who? Blame me, myself and I. These are the lessons that I seriously need to learn and MUST learn before I become a real zombie, a real one. T______T

1. Not to accept tasks more than I can handle.
2. Not to be driven by money.
3. Not to underestimate 'easy tasks' but actually time-consuming.

Oh God, for the umpteenth time, grant me wisdom and strength, and yeah, peace of mind.

By the way, when I was a little bit free, I get to roam around at Logos, the ship that is full of books. Can't wait to my old self again. T___________T

Love while you can and stay calm for now, stay calm, stay calm... *chanting to myself*

Mountain to conquer

2011-11-22T09:48:00.001+08:00

Work is piling like a mountain now that I feel so drowned in it. *sigh* I still have a lot in my to-do list to strike off but with a packed schedule, some tasks are almost impossible to handle. *sigh yet again*

God, grant me strength and wisdom. T______T

In the midst of chaos...

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you; I do not give it to you as the world does. Do not let your hearts be distressed or lacking in courage"

John 14:27

Love while you can.. :)

p/s: Hey Heartbeat, I love you. 37 more days to go. :*

Jakarta rocks!

2011-11-09T15:02:00.000+08:00

I finally got hold of my own passport for my very FIRST overseas trip, yay! ^______________^ I got so excited because I could finally strike off my wishlist of places I want to go. So, 4 of us went to Jakarta for Empowered 21 conference, it was not really a holiday, but heck who cares, I still went overseas, yay! ^___^

I've been wanting to go to Jakarta just because my favourite, favourite fashion bloggers are both from Indonesia, Diana and Devi. It's not that I could bump into them when I went there, but I was so freaking excited! ^__^

One thing I realized when I went there, the women are so fashionable! I love it that they could pull together very nice looks wearing LITERALLY anything, from Batik to pants to dresses, I totally fall in love with the women there. INSPIRING! *_^

It was indeed an awesome conference! My very first big conference. I was so blessed and I learned a lot of things.

Love while you can and keep growing people! ^_^

p/s: I'll be away AGAIN for 10 days, need to cancel lots of classes. *sigh*

of Krazy Robot, the band.

2011-11-08T10:46:00.002+08:00

We are the what? Yes, we are the Krazy Robot. T_________________T I thought the guys were joking when they said they wanted to join battle of the bands and the band's name is Krazy Robot. Then, I found out that it was not a joke at all, when Krazy Robot was written as the band name on the registration form.

Okay, so my students saw me as one of the vocalists of Krazy Robot. Yes, so cool. T_____________T

The line-up:

Vocalists - Eric & Erlinda
Guitar - Melvin
Bass - Darrel
Keyboard - Roy
Drum - Albert

Songs: Jetlagged (Simple Plan) & Higher (Taio Cruz)

Event: UNIMAS Battle of the Band

Result: 6th place out of 50+ bands

It was awesome, but the most embarrassing part was, WE FORGOT THE LYRICS. T_________T

Nevertheless, we really enjoyed ourselves! Yay!

Love while you can and make music with your heart. ^_^

Syl & Mikko's Beach Wedding

2011-11-04T13:57:00.000+08:00

Dear my lovely cousin Sylvia,

Congratulations on your wedding. I know this is a wee bit late (a bit? Oh well...). You were such a lovely bride, and Mikko was the perfect groom for you.

It was the happiest day for our family as you are finally united with your Mr. Right. My prayer is that both of you will be happy together forever.

Love you Syl! :D

Centrepiece

Layla Baun

Ruby the flower girl

Exchanging rings

"You may kiss the bride."

Accessory for the bride's family

Who got the bouquet? :D

The theme: White and Yellow

Love while you can and live your life well.

Excuses that make a teacher angry

2011-10-31T19:02:00.000+08:00

I can't do the test my class is full. (First year student)
I have exam tomorrow, I can't submit the assignment today. (Given 2 weeks before the due date and it's a 1 page assignment)
I don't understand your instructions. (I announced three times in class for 2 consecutive weeks, including online announcement)
I went to your office but you were not there. (I WAS AT THE OFFICE THE WHOLE TIME)
I went around the block A FEW TIMES but could not see the notice. (Notice was in BIG fonts)
I forgot that we have a test. (FORGOT?!)
I didn't know that we have a test. (????)

Oh LORD, have mercy. T_____________________T

Love while you can.

of girlfriends.

2011-10-14T12:23:00.001+08:00

Ok, now this is so not cool. Rosnie's birthday was on the 1st September, and I only got to blog about it, let's see, what date is today, 14th October?! *sigh*

Nevertheless, I still want to blog about this simple celebration of her birthday, which we had at Pizza Hut, because she was about to go off to Miri to attend a friend's wedding, so this was like a quickie birthday celebration. Weeee! ^_^ 

Stay gorgeous darling Rosnie, you are the best! *hugs*

... and finally, something to share,
 
For the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

-Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005-
Love while you can. ^_^

The most crucial

2011-10-12T12:59:00.000+08:00

Things may not be as perfect as planned

People may hate you for so many reasons

Words may hurt you like you've never known before

But I learn one thing

To be happy and content with my life 

Simply ignoring negativity and

Continuing to spread positivity

"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones."

Proverbs 22:7 

Love while you can. :)

Of beauty and work.

2011-10-06T18:42:00.002+08:00

I'm determined to do the following, and I'm doing them now. BERSEMANGATLAH!

Exercise 3-4 times a week
Eat healthy food (prepare lunchbox from home)
Take supplements
Put on mask twice a week
Sleep early - the latest is 12 a.m.
Stay positive

Photo taken by Carol when we had our work meeting at Starbucks. (Yes, we are cool like that. :P)

I miss those moments when we were so free, we had so much time that we actually had our lunches at airport's McDonald. Now, all we have is packed lunches or no lunch at all. *sigh* 


Photo taken by Wawa after our hearty lunch.

Oh, another thing. I feel so good about myself  now since I've been exercising regularly. It's not that I'm losing weight, but I'm more body confident now. Yay! ^_^ 

Live a healthy life, jom? ^_^

Love while you can and love with all your heart. 

Girlish smart

2011-10-05T15:52:00.001+08:00

I've been very busy with work, my schedule this semester is kinda packed. But one thing I can assure you, I come home every night feeling satisfied because I know I've given my very best. Yay! ^___^

At the meantime, just wanna share with you these two women that inspire me a lot when it comes to style, presenting to you.. Leighton Meester and Lauren Conrad. I've gathered some photos that I like, enjoy! ^_^

One of the reasons why I love Gossip Girls was because of the ladies who dress so nicely. *melting* Pretty woman can really melt me.

Then, I found out about Lauren Conrad from an MTV reality show. I fell in love with her at the frist sight.

Source http://www.celebritystyleguide.com

At the meantime, don't forget to live a healthy life, love with all your heart and in whatever you do, do it with passion. ^_^

Love while you can!

Of being a woman.

2011-09-30T11:01:00.000+08:00

For the past few months, I've been meditating on this particular chapter in Proverbs. I read this chapter a few years back, it meant a little. But now with such intensity, I read it again and again and again, I bought two books talking about this particular chapter. It hit me, this is the ideal woman that God wants me to be.

It's a challenge, IT IS CHALLENGING. It's almost impossible to achieve, what more living in this world full of worldly pleasures and temptations. *sigh*

Nevertheless, I'm taking the challenge, ONE STEP AT A TIME. ONE STEP AT A TIME LORD. Your strength, Your guidance, Your spirit, Your wisdom, those I need, I pray. 

Proverbs 31 : 10 -31

10 A wife of noble character who can find? 
   She is worth far more than rubies. 
11 Her husband has full confidence in her 
   and lacks nothing of value. 
12 She brings him good, not harm, 
   all the days of her life. 
13 She selects wool and flax 
   and works with eager hands. 
14 She is like the merchant ships, 
   bringing her food from afar. 
15 She gets up while it is still night; 
   she provides food for her family 
   and portions for her female servants. 
16 She considers a field and buys it; 
   out of her earnings she plants a vineyard. 
17 She sets about her work vigorously; 
   her arms are strong for her tasks. 
18 She sees that her trading is profitable, 
   and her lamp does not go out at night. 
19 In her hand she holds the distaff 
   and grasps the spindle with her fingers. 
20 She opens her arms to the poor 
   and extends her hands to the needy. 
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household; 
   for all of them are clothed in scarlet. 
22 She makes coverings for her bed; 
   she is clothed in fine linen and purple. 
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate, 
   where he takes his seat among the elders of the land. 
24 She makes linen garments and sells them, 
   and supplies the merchants with sashes. 
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; 
   she can laugh at the days to come. 
26 She speaks with wisdom, 
   and faithful instruction is on her tongue. 
27 She watches over the affairs of her household 
   and does not eat the bread of idleness. 
28 Her children arise and call her blessed; 
   her husband also, and he praises her: 
29 “Many women do noble things, 
   but you surpass them all.” 
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; 
   but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. 
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done, 
   and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

... and today, I've made a commitment to make this chapter as my lifetime goal. I may take years, I may take a LIFETIME to be this kind of woman, but I'm ready to take the challenge. 

Come, join me? 

Love while you can. :) 

Of privacy.

2011-09-29T20:54:00.001+08:00

Was reading a few blogs and some were complaining about how much they need privacy and how much they hate people prying on their lives. That keeps me wondering...

WHY DO YOU BLOG IF YOU NEED PRIVACY THAT MUCH? 

Just a thought. Love while you can. :)

p/s: I'm blogging from my class because students are having their tests now. Tahniah. :P 

Since when?

2011-09-20T18:54:00.001+08:00

Since when the students are so cute? They clapped hands after I ended today's class, feel like performing at a concert pun ada. :P

Anyhoo, I've just started teaching night classes, this week is the second week. I'm still adjusting to the new schedule since it has been a while since I taught class till 9.30 p.m. God, grant me enough strength.^_^

Life has been awfully good, like REALLY REALLY REALLY good. ^________^ Waking up every single day being thankful and blessed.

Oh, by the way, I've just (seriously) started my health regime (konon-kononya). I'm sleeping much earlier now, the latest is 12am. I find that my mood is much better when I have enough sleep and in return, I can teach better in the morning. Coolness. ^___^

Trying, with every cell in my body, to eat healthily. I'm a food freak, I love food and food loves me, it's a battle to really eat what deemed healthy. Haishhh.. Have been reading a lot on health articles, hope that helps. *_^

BERSEMANGATLAH! ^__________^

Live a great life, can? LOVE WHILE YOU CAN!

Readings of the month.

2011-09-14T09:00:00.000+08:00

4 books for this month, and ALL of them are Heartbeat's. Oh, the joy of not having to buy the books. Ngeee... :P The theme for this month should I say, "GETTING OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE".

#1 & #2. 2 books in 1, Team and Winning with People by John C. Maxwell. John C. Maxwell is by far my favourite author on human interactions. I read his book "25 ways to win with people" before I started teaching, it is very insightful for career like mine as we deal with people ALL THE TIME. I'm almost done with Winning With People, next up is TEAM. Weeeee! :D

#3 This is the book that Heartbeat has been pushing me to read. I'm almost done with this as well. The principles are very similar with the one in 'Magic of Thinking Big'. LOVE! :D

#3. ... and this book. Wow! This would be my very first book on financial. Never once occurred in my mind that I would read this book, but my it was really an eye opener to get very serious with my financial planning. The way it is written is very simple and laid back, perfect for financial illiterate like me. :P

Oh, by the way, I bought a new book last weekend by a local writer. I'll share with you once I'm done reading.

Love while you can and happy reading! :D

How to say 'I LOVE YOU' businessman-style.

2011-09-13T09:28:00.001+08:00

"I love you with the highest interest rate"

Love while you can. :)

The Crocs.

2011-09-07T14:58:00.003+08:00

One fine day...

Heartbeat: Jom, we watch football? Sarawak vs Kelantan.

Summer: You go with the boys la. Have fun with them.

Heartbeat: Come la...I think a few girls will be joining too.

Summer: Hhhhhhmmmmm... ok then.

Last night....

Summer: (Looking around) Where are the other girls?

Heartbeat: I think they are not coming.

Summer: I'm the only girl? *sobs*

I'm the least sporty and athletic you will ever meet in your life. I still don't get some of the rules in football, especially "OFFSIDE", whatever that is, I still don't get it. But I had so much fun last night, not because of the game but because of the crowd. SO FUN! :D

Taken from Crocs News Update

Congrats to Kelantan, Sarawak is so beaten by 2-0. :'(

Love while you can.

p/s: I love blogspot new dashboard layout, LOVE! :D

Constantly amazed.

2011-08-26T10:56:00.003+08:00

Never once You let me down
Never once You let me go
Tho' time after time
My sins bring me far from You
Never once You forsake me

Constantly I am amazed

Constantly I am in awe
In the beauty of Your love
In the wonders of Your work
You're awesome God and You're getting more awesome, YAY! :D

I love you Lord! :D

Love while you can.. :)

Victory.

2011-08-24T14:16:00.002+08:00

Today, I'm claiming victory on my RELATIONSHIP, FINANCIAL, FAMILY, CAREER, MINISTRY and HEALTH.

I'm inserting my name to this promise. Amen and Amen. :D

Psalm 1:3

³ [ERLINDA] is like a tree planted by streams of water,
which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither—
whatever [ERLINDA] does prospers.

Love while you can.. :)

A summary.

2011-08-19T11:54:00.006+08:00

July was a hectic month, oh wait, should I say a PRODUCTIVE one? :D Thus, a summary of my July.

#1 Got invited to Ray and Leta's wedding and we were the wedding band.

#2 Had rounds and rounds of coffee at Ipoh Town.

#2 Attended a very uplifting service on Holy Spirit at Bethany Church.

#3 The committee member for Musical Celebration Kuching which was a blast, yay! :D

#4 The emcee for Creative Dance Competition 2011 at Tun Jugah.

My simple prayer:

Thank you Father for July, thank you for the lessons, thank you for the blessings, thank you for being amazing. Amen.

Love while you can. :)

p/s: Heartbeat is away for a conference. :'(

Don't give a damn.

2011-08-15T14:05:00.000+08:00

One beautiful evening, inside Heartbeat's car listening to the radio...

The radio: Who says, who says you're not perfect, who says you're not worth it ...

Summer: That's Justin Bieber's girlfriend.

Heartbeat: Who?

Summer: Selena Gomez, the one in the radio. They just broke up.

Heartbeat: Why?

Summer: The other day I read in newspaper, Selena didn't like Justin's new 'bad' friends.

Heartbeat: Who are his friends?

Summer: I can't remember the rest but I know one, Lil' Wayne.

Heartbeat: Oh, the one from Sabah?

Summer: ??????????????????????????????????

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On another unrelated note, Heartbeat and I were invited to my cousin Sylvia's beach wedding in Bintulu. The theme was white and yellow, I got so excited because both are my favourite colours. Yay!

HOWEVER, things were not that excited when we had to shop for 3 days to look for 'THE DRESS'. I kept in mind that the dress must be YELLOW OR WHITE, COMFORTABLE AND BEACH WEDDING-ISH. Haisshh... Nevertheless, I show you some of the dresses that didn't make it.

Dress #1 Verdict : Too low, the fabric looks cheap, too casual. NO!

Dress #2 Verdict : Very comfortable but too casual and VERY expensive for this kind of dress. NO!

Dress #3 Verdict : Neither yellow nor white, TOO expensive. NO!

Dress #4 Verdict : Very comfortable but too low and too tight at the upper part of the dress. NO!

Dress #5 Verdict : Very comfortable, reasonable price, fits nicely BUT it's neither YELLOW or WHITE. :'( Maybe next time... *wink*

Dress #6 Verdict : Obviously, neither YELLOW or WHITE. :P NO!

Dress #7 Verdict : It's white, comfortable and the price is reasonable BUT I might look like one of the bridesmaids. NO!

Dress #8 Verdict : I like this one. I almost bought it but Heartbeat didn't really like it. :( Half-heartedly... NO!

Dress #9 Verdict : Very cheap dress, very cute, but I think this one was too casual. I might come back to get this, as my casual dress. :D Maybe next time...

Then, on the 3rd day of dress-hunting, we finally found the one. YAY!

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Dress #10 Verdict: Very comfortable, fits nicely, reasonable price, perfect for a wedding reception, and most importantly it's YELLOW & WHITE. YAYYY!!! *round of applause*

Love while you can. :)

Pointless conversation (again).

2011-08-11T12:28:00.003+08:00

On our way to a bakery, with Heartbeat's right arm around my neck.

Heartbeat: Can I just fold you and eat you like eating burger? *air munching*

Summer: Eh?

Heartbeat: No, no, you can't be eaten, I just chew you like this. (making munching action)

Summer: Eh?

Love while you can, though your boyfriend sometimes sees you as food. :'( :P

The book.

2011-08-08T16:27:00.005+08:00

Before I went off for my holiday in May (yes, I know it's August now, now stop pointing it out for me. :P ), Heartbeat bought me this book. I was overjoyed, yay! :D

You know what's cute? The things he scribbled inside the book. *melting*

He wrote 'Marry me' in the content page. Wait, is he proposing?

I must read the book in 90 days, it's something like daily devotion. So far I gained a lot of insights from this book. Very helpful and informative for a Christian woman. LIKE! :D

If you happen to encounter this book at any bookstore, please grab one for yourself, okay?

Love while you can. :D :D :D

Proud of you.

2011-08-03T11:48:00.002+08:00

Yesterday.

Summer: I'll meet you around 4p.m. something at your office?

Heartbeat: Ok, we go to my sister's workplace first to pick up flowers, okay?

Summer: For your dad's?

Heartbeat: Ya.

Yesterday was Heartbeat's Dad's 7th year of passing. I can see through his eyes how much he has been missing his dad.

He talks about him all the time, he is proud of how much he resembles his dad, he is proud of how much he inherits his charm, he is proud of how loving his dad was to his mum.

Last night I was so touched when he suddenly texted saying that how he wished his dad can be at our big day. :'(

Heartbeat dear, you know what, (I think I've told you this for million times, but I want to tell you again and again), if your dad was still alive today, he would be the proudest dad to have a son like you. You have grown into a very handsome and successful man that he would be very proud to call you 'my son'.

He's proud of you, and I am proud of you. :')

Love while you can and never take your loved ones for granted.

Photo of the month.

2011-08-01T00:51:00.002+08:00

Heartbeat and Summer at a wedding as the wedding band. (Congratulations to Ray and Leta. God bless both of you. ) As usual, Summer as the singer, Heartbeat as the drummer.

Love while you can, and I can finally take a very very very deep breathe. Yayyyy! :D

Pointless conversation.

2011-07-27T16:33:00.001+08:00

Drove by BATA shoe shop.

Summer: You know what, this shop has all year round Sale!

Heartbeat: True.

Summer: Bila la sidak nya tok sikda sale? (when will they not have sale? )

Heartbeat: Sidak nya sikda sale bila sidak nya sikda sale. (they will not have sale when they will not have sale)

Summer: ........

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On another unrelated note, I. SERIOUSLY. NEED. A. BREAK. PRONTO. :'(

Oh Lord, grant me strength and energy. :'(

Love while you can.

"Kau Ku Miliki"

2011-07-22T15:12:00.004+08:00

This was taken somewhere in 2008 when Heartbeat and Summer were merely band mates. This was performed at SIB Shallom after we graduated. :) There were actually 6 of us and we called ourselves 'Soulshakers'. :)

Last night, I came across this video and decided to upload it. Enjoy people!

I'm gonna have a very very very "productive" weekend. Hope you enjoy yours. Happy weekend people.

Love while you can, just love while you can. :)

Musical Celebration 2011

2011-07-21T14:16:00.002+08:00

I've been very busy because I'm one of the committee members for this event, Musical Celebration 2011. :)

Got talents? Come join us for a Christian concert with Sidney Mohede and team. Then, the following day till Sunday, we're gonna have gospel band and dance competition.

Come? Get the tickets from me.

As you can see, instead of taking down minutes of meeting, I ate those food served in front of me. Duduk lantai bagus, lagi dekat dengan makanan. :P

Here's a promo video, take your time to watch. :)

For more information click this or this. :)

Love while you can because nobody is perfect and everybody needs some loving. :)

The grooves.

2011-07-20T14:20:00.002+08:00

Some photos taken by Tun Jugah Photographer during the qualifying round and semi final during Showdance 2011.

I have two left feet (I can even kick my own foot while poco-poco) and seeing those kids spinning around on the floor doing their things, I was totally blown away. Wow!

I was expecting more pictures of me, and guess what, that's the only picture of me on the stage. *sob, sob, sob*

The final round will be on 30th July 2011 at Tun Jugah. Come? Let's have fun? :D

Oh, by the way, it's the middle of the week already, time flies so fast eh? Keep yourself energized, have enough sleep and eat well.

Love while you can and don't forget to tell your loved ones that you love them. :)

p/s: If you need an emcee for an event, contact me. :)

My bf is a magician.

2011-07-19T12:54:00.002+08:00

If only he was not somewhere in business line...

... he would have entertained you in small kids' parties with his magic shows.

Love while you can. :)

p/s: A tip for guys out there, girls love magic tricks. :P

How good you want to be?

2011-07-18T14:03:00.003+08:00

Got myself this book after emcee-ing at Tun Jugah (will talk more about this once we are done with the final round, can't wait! :D ). The book, I must say, totally an eye opener and brain stirrer, if there's such a word.

Image taken from here.

I would suggest this book for those who prefer lesser words and more illustration, super fun! :D

" Don't look for the next opportunity,
the one you have in hand is the opportunity "

-Paul Arden-

Love while you can, don't wait to love. :)

Catch me if you can.

2011-07-15T15:52:00.003+08:00

I'll be the emcee at this event tomorrow. Catch me if you can! :D

Love while you can and have a wonderful weekend. :*

p/s: This is rather rare, announcing where I'll be and what I'll be doing for real. Rasa macam artis ada juak. TOiinkkk... Anyhoo, say 'Hi!' if you happen to bump into me. :D

For what I am.

2011-07-14T11:06:00.000+08:00

Heartbeat: You know what makes me fall for you?

Summer: What?

Heartbeat: Your learning attitude.

Summer: *teary eyes*

I'm thanking God that he didn't say (while I would love to :P :P :P)

'your big brown eyes', because I use coloured make-your-eyes-big contact lenses
'your porcelain skin', because I put on make up to cover imperfections
'your beautiful nails', because I buff and put on enamel on them so they shine
'your sexy voice'. because I have a husky and 'manly' voice people often thought I was a man on the phone
'your long straight hair'. because I use straightening iron to flat the frizzy hair

I used to be very conscious about how I looked back then. I would be very worried if I couldn't present my very best looks. But as I grow, I realize that attitude and personality matter most. That doesn't mean it's okay too look ugly, but we should put more effort in building characters and improving ourselves. Don't you think so? :)

I'm still learning, de-cluttering 'the trash' and organizing 'the goods'.

Come, let's learn together? :)

Love while you can, because beauty may fade but learning will never stop.

I lack nothing.

2011-07-12T12:30:00.003+08:00

I felt burdened and worried, financially, since more demands and responsibilities were coming my way. I even cried middle of the night thinking of how much I had to carry and most of the times I felt helpless.

This morning, I really prayed for wisdom not 'money' per say. For I know, wisdom is the only thing I can use to really move forward. :)

I switched on my work PC and played one song "Esok Kan Ku Jelang" countless times and I recited Psalm 23:1 many times until I believe it. Until this tiny seed of faith really grows in me.

Oh, by the way.

The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.

Psalm 23:1

Remember I mentioned 'END MIND' in my previous blog entry? So, this is what Heartbeat normally does, if he wants something, he will take a picture representing that thing and start believing that he has already owned it.

So, I'm doing that now. There are 3 pictures representing the things that I'm dealing with now.

#1. Home sweet home. :)

Image taken from here.

#2. Jakarta Trip.

Image taken from here.

#3. Masters Degree in Education

Image taken from here.

Dear my mighty God, I commit these 3 items unto Your hands. You know my needs and wants. I claim Your promise in Psalm 23. Thanks in advance! Amen.

Love while you can, and have faith! :D

I've got plans.

2011-07-11T13:13:00.006+08:00

Today, on this particular date, I reviewed all my wants, my plans and my wishes once again. It's already the two third of 2011, a few months to go before we welcome 2012. Can't wait. :D

I stared at my wish-list and let out silent prayers.

'Father, I pray for every single item in this wish-list, some sound very simple, some are a bit ambitious. But you know what Father, YOU have better plans for me as YOUR thoughts are above everything else. Nevertheless, I'm committing every plan unto your hands once again. Grant me heavenly wisdom. Thank you Father. Amen'

Another wishlist here.

Heartbeat always reminds me to have an END MIND, meaning, picture yourself achieving all your dreams and your actions will position themselves to walk towards them. Very true. My dreams are becoming true day by day. :)

Come, let's achieve our dreams together? :)

Love while you can and be reminded that dreams do come true. :)

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding"
Proverbs 3:5

Hujung minggu bersama Heartbeat & Summer

2011-07-02T23:45:00.005+08:00

We've been crazily busy (BUT fun) for the past few weeks, rarely had time for ourselves. Therefore, we dedicated this weekend for Heartbeat and Summer only, which means, spending the whole day together like nobody's business. :P

Shopped for working shoes at NOSE, The Spring but I ended up buying shoes at VINCCI.

Pardon the picture, taken using his phone. Crazy ka if I carry my DSLR around while shopping? :S

The pair of shoes that I initially wanted to buy but sik jadi because then I saw another pair that was way prettier and more comfortable. No picture for those shoes... toinkkkk! But surely I'll get this pair (the pair shown above) soon, I kinda like it. Cool macam itu. :P

Heartbeat's mum had been complaining about his worn-out towel, siap ada lubang gik ya. Sexy la tek. :P So, as a "wonderful" girlfriend, I bought a towel for him, siap dengan message sekali, which says, "It's time to move on with a new towel." Yayyy! :P

Spent some time at MPH (fave spot), and Heartbeat got himself 3 new books. We had our lunch at Sushi King and tea time at Ipoh Town before heading to music practice. Then, at night, straight away to fund-raising dinner for a church, which concluded the day.

Phewwwwww! A packed and productive day worth blogging.

How was everybody's weekend? Enjoyed yours? :)

Love while you can and take some time to spend with your loved ones. :)

Simple

2011-07-01T13:56:00.002+08:00

In the midst of this busy life, I tend to forget to stop for a while to smell the roses or maybe smell my boyfriend (:P) and to show my appreciation towards the people I love. Today, I'm reminding myself to live in simplicity, that includes de-cluttering things that are no longer important in my life.

Come, let's practice simplicity in extraordinary way?

"Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication"

-Leonardo da Vinci-

Love while you can and show your love in simple yet meaningful ways. :)

Quote of the day

2011-06-26T20:02:00.002+08:00

"Not what happened in the past that matters, but the lessons you learn from it."

-Miss Little Town-

Repeat after me, "PAST IS PAST".

Love while you can, BECAUSE YOU CAN! :D

Let's Just Fall in Love Again

2011-06-22T17:44:00.001+08:00

One fine day, on our way back from lunch.

Heartbeat: You know this song?

Summer: Heard it somewhere.

Heartbeat: When we started to be close, I downloaded this song online.

Summer: *Mata sepet, mulut tutup, bahu ke atas* <--- aksi teruja yang comel. :P

Love while you can, and let's fall in love over and over and over again. :)

oh, by the way.

"Love with freedom, not out of fear."
-Heartbeat-

Businessman Vs. Teacher

2011-06-20T13:15:00.004+08:00

Difference #1:

The road to Sri Aman was under construction, then there were many signs '2K', for every few meters.

Heartbeat: Wow! The road is very expensive!

Summer: Why so?

Heartbeat: Every RM2K (RM2000) for every few meters.

Summer: Eh? When I see 2K, I see 2K.

Difference #2:

We were behind a lorry carrying 'something'.
Summer: Hey, coconuts! (kampung2)

Hearbeat: Hey, alien!

Love while you can, even when you are two totally different and unique individuals. :)

Too happy.

2011-06-13T11:43:00.002+08:00

Woke up late this morning. Too happy to sleep last night. ^_________________^

Love while you can. :)

Staying focused.

2011-06-08T14:06:00.001+08:00

One fine day, I blurted out my fear to Heartbeat. Negative thought that just breezed into my mind, I told him. Nothing really happened that made me thing such thought, but it just happened.

'Stay focused dear', he said, 'and look ahead'. Like a lightning bolt, I was struck with those words. In the midst of this happiness, I was careless by looking back. There's nothing wrong with looking back, but at the way of how we look at the past. I was scared for no reason, I was overcome with fear of losing. There, I was scared. :(

I tried to figure out why I was scared. Then I realized there was this tiny voice inside of my head saying, 'One day it will be taken away from you, you don't deserve this'. Instant sadness filled my chest, I almost choked. But when I remember 'look head', with a smile on my face I told this tiny voice, 'I don't deserve anything, very true, but all I have is all because of HIS grace. Go away little creature. You're not meant to be here.'

Quietly, the tiny voice went away.

I said my little prayer. Reminding myself to stay focused and look head. Excitingly looking ahead. :)

Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keepeth the law, happy is he.

Proverbs 29:18

Love while you can. :)

Gawai Celebration this year.

2011-06-06T13:03:00.004+08:00

I was away for Gawai holiday for 1 week, spent my time in my beloved Little Town with family. The celebration this year was very simple and a sombre one. I was always looking forward for Gawai because I knew that I would see my grandparents.

But this year, it was different. Grandma is no longer with us, no more greetings from afar, no more traditional delicacies to eat, no more folklore to share. Her absence was greatly felt. Friends and families who came to visit us, felt her absence too. They shared how my grandma had touched their lives, everywhere I went they would point to the walls and said, 'Those are made by your grandma', I looked at those things she delicately made using her bare hands. Beautiful.

The moment I put my feet on the tiled floor of our longhouse, I couldn't stop my tears from flowing. I miss her. My grandma was a chatty person, a loud one. She was very animated. She would jump and squat and lie down and do whatever to enhance the story. A perfect storyteller, a storyteller at heart.

I took a deep breath and smiled again, greeting the rest of the family as I walked around the house. Then, I went to the kitchen. I couldn't stop myself crying again. Now, harder, I sobbed. I could recall all the delicacies she made. There was none on the table. Only modern foods, simple traditional delicacies. Only if grandma was still here... I miss her.

Half a year after her passing, she is dearly missed. Not only by her children, her grandchildren but also of those lives she had touched. A life that was greatly lived by a humble person. She was no celebrity, no politician, but she was that ordinary person with extraordinary impact.

I miss her.

Selamat Hari Gawai to all readers/bloggers/friends. Come, let's take this moment to cherish the times we had with our loved ones?

Love while you can... :')

What kind of life?

2011-05-25T16:32:00.003+08:00

I used to complain a lot about how busy my life was (and still is) before this. It seemed like I never got bored because I always had things to do. There are times when I can't finish some work on time because there are too many on the list. Not good. :(

So, there was one time when I thought to myself that I should pull the brake and get myself free from whatever that was making me busy (which also includes church activities). And guess what? I started to 'enjoy' myself with lots of things. And most of them were useless joyful moments. Not good. :'(

Then I learned, by keeping myself busy, I am actually using my all to work and to function, using my potential n gifts. I am not bothered with other petty matters that are, u know, petty. ;)

Come, let's live an eventful life? ")

"We hear that some among you are idle and disruptive. They are not busy; they are busybodies"

2 Thessalonians 3:11

Oh, another thing people. Heartbeat contributes articles on financial to this personal motivational blog. Feeling low and confused about your money? Come, read some of his articles by clicking HERE.

Love while you can, and do all things in the name of LOVE. :)

p/s: Yes, of course I encourage you to keep yourself busy, BUT, don't forget to smell the roses along the way? :)

When boy meets girl

2011-05-23T14:56:00.001+08:00

At this age of where relationships are more fragile than new-born babies, only in God can we trust to hold things together. You work all your might to keep the relationship going, you struggle day in and day out to make the relationship last, but in the end, all your efforts are in vain. Familiar? :)

I learned a lot from the previous ones and I am still learning. I'm not saying I have perfected all my ways and all my conducts, far from it, but ya, I'm still learning. Come, let's learn together? :)

I'm so thankful that Hearbeat is a reader, an avid one, I warn you. A reader AND a drummer AND a super cool businessman? What else can I ask for? :P

Years back, the only reason that made us so close was that he would drop by for a while at my house and we exchanged books and then discussed about them. I know, I know, sangatlah bookworms, kan? But, hey, look at where we are now. Muahkakaka! :P (Back then it was pure friendship, bandmates are not supposed to have "something" going on :P)

One fine day when we suddenly sensed that "something" was going on, before everything started, we decided to read a book, as a guide. I suddenly remembered that I had read a book, back in 2007, "Boy meets girl" by Joshua Harris, which I thought was the PERFECT book for us. So, I bought one for him and we read it together. So, I re-read mine 4 years later. :)

We learned a lot. We suddenly realized sooooooo many things we had done in the past hurt soooooooo many people around us and we decided it had to STOP. Things must CHANGE. Things must be different now.

That was when we realized, God's way is the best way, and is still the best way.

That was when we decided, to trust God. Like freaking trust God.

We are still learning. Come let's learn together? :)

Oh, another thing. From the bottom of my heart, should I say, from the bottoms of our hearts (should I write 'bottom' with 's'? if two hearts, that means two bottoms la right?) Oh well, my point is, you see, I've mentioned that we have hurt so many people around us, purposely or not, I know we have, from our sincere hearts, we want to say we are sorry for whatever that was in the past that didn't show the acts of love.

The journey has just begun, and many wonderful things to come. We invite YOU, yes YOU my beloved blog readers, my friends, to join us, learn with us and enjoy God's blessings, together with us, all the way, ALL THE WAY TOGETHER WITH US, to the God-designed 'destination'.

Jom? *stretches out our hands*

Love while you can. :)

P/s: You can actually find the book at MPH, at the Christian Living, Relationship department.

Have I told you?

2011-05-19T15:54:00.005+08:00

... that SUMMER was the band singer and HEARTBEAT was the drummer for SoulShakers?

... that SUMMER & HEARTBEAT were best friends for 7 years?

... that HEARTBEAT ever appeared in SUMMER's blog? Click HERE.

Ngeeee... Love while you can :)

Masa Oh Masa

2011-05-10T14:25:00.000+08:00

I'm bogged down with tonnes of work now, so please bear with me k? I have lots of things to share, can't wait! *claps hands* :D

By the way, Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there. Being a mother is the highest calling, because you have given birth to future leaders, future doctors, future teachers, future 'SOMEONE'. :)

That picture was taken by Najwa while I was marking students' assignments, now busy marking students' exams. Haishhh... Cheer me on, will you? Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! :D

Love while you can and forgive now matter how unpleasant it is.

New beginning

2011-04-28T17:15:00.003+08:00

I'll share about what happened today when the time is right but I just want to put it here on my blog, on 28 April 2011, at 1 - 3 p.m., at Manhattan as a reminder of the following:

how great GOD is.
how happy HEARTBEAT & SUMMER are.

"Father in heaven, YOU are awesome. Thank you for Heartbeat, thank you for the experience, thank YOU."

Ngeeeeeeeee... KITE GEMBIRE!

Love while you can, I MEAN IT, LOVE WHILE YOU CAN! :D

Well taken care of

2011-04-19T17:06:00.003+08:00

I'm seriously busy for the past 2 months, never really had enough rest, but I'm thankful that I get to slip in some fun in between my busy days. :D

Today is the second day of our course which we need to attend until next Tuesday, every single day 8 a.m. - 5 p.m. Last night, I stayed back at the office till 9.15 p.m. Had lots of marking to do since we need to put up the carry marks for display before their final exams next week.

Last week I caught 'mini' flu. Then, I started coughing since last Saturday and last night I had trouble sleeping because I just couldn't stop coughing. Huhuhu... Today, I had to be at the course again early morning, Wua! :'(

While I was listening attentively (konon2nya) to a professor talking in front...

Then, SUDDENLY... Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! Teketaz! Teketiz!

1 New Message

Hearbeat: I got medicine for you. Can I borrow your 2 minutes?

Rushed down the building and saw his car coming in. EXCITED! Yay! Yay! Yay! (wait, I was sick right?) :P

Ngeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.............. :D Thank you Hearbeat. Ngeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... :D

*melting*

*still melting*

Love while you can... that's it, just love while you can. :)

*still melting* :D :D :D :D

Honesty & Trust

2011-04-14T13:44:00.000+08:00

When trust is violated
Way too many times
It gets difficult to say 'I trust you'
It gets difficult to be true

Opening up again
Saying 'I trust you' yet one more time
These are of no vain
These are miracles so fine

For this burden deep inside
Still bleeding wounds
Thinking by putting them aside
Will make it heal soon

Truth to be told
Wounds are still wounds
They need to be healed
Before they can be sealed

Extreme honesty is all what it needs
Humbly truth be revealed
Forgiveness is all what I seek
For I am vulnerable and weak

FATHER, once again I come to thee
As humble as I can be
Submitting these wounds to you I plea
Heal them and let me be free

Come, let go of your wounds and join me to be free today? :)

Love while you can, because love heals all wounds. :)

P/s: Heartbeat, thank you. :')

On the rock

2011-04-12T11:47:00.006+08:00

I fall and rise so many times in my life that I lost count. I had been at the lowest point of my life that I thought I would never get up again, I almost gave up life.

I was disappointed with the things that happened in my life, too many failures that I thought I shouldn't dream anymore. I thought I just should go with the flow.

Then, I realized I've been depending too much on myself to make things right in life. I've been building my house on the sand, instead of rock. No wonder 'my house' was blown away easily.

Come, let's build our houses on the rock? :)

“Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.”

Matthew 7:24-27

Love while you can, because love overcomes anything. :)

"Best of Me"

2011-04-11T11:37:00.003+08:00

So many years gone, still I remember
How did I ever let my heart believe
in one who never gave enough to me
And so many years gone,love that was so wrong

I can't forget the way it used to be

and how you changed the taste of love for me

You were my one more chance
I never thought I'd find
you were the one romance
I've always known in my mind
No one could ever touch me more
and I only hope that in return
I might have saved the best of me for you

And we'll have no ending if we can hold on
I think I've come this far because of you
could be no other love but ours will do

You were my one more chance
I never thought I'd find
you were the one romance
I've always known in my mind
No one could ever touch me more
and I only hope that in return
I might have saved the best of me for you

No one will ever touch me more
I only hope that in return
No matter how much we have to learn
That I might have saved the best, very best of me for you

Received this in my inbox. Thank you Heartbeat. Ngeeee... :D Oh by the way, he's one big fan of Michael Buble. Teruja! :D

Love while you can, and "we'll have no ending if we can hold on". :)

Choices

2011-04-08T15:40:00.000+08:00

I used to trust God half-heartedly, because I didn't trust Him to make some choices for me, because I thought He would make boring choices for me - you know, there are some things you cannot do because He wants you to be goody-goody.

Then, it hit me, I had a dialogue with myself.

Myself: Are you stupid or just plain STUPID?

Miss Little Town: Hoi! Who are you to say I'm STUPID?

Myself: Who am I? I am you la, STUPID!

Miss Little Town: Eh, yala ho.

Myself: You said "He would make boring choices for you"???

Miss Little Town: Yes, I don't want His boring choices. You know, goody-goody man who doesn't know how to have fun, who only wants to be and do good ALL THE TIME.

Myself: Now, that's PLAIN STUPID.

Miss Little Town: What?! Why?!

Myself: Have you never seen the beautiful mountains He created, the happy laughter He put on children's faces, the harmonious singing birds on the trees, the flowing river that never stops? He created all the beautiful things that you enjoy now. AND YOU SAID THAT HIS CHOICES ARE BORING?

Miss Little Town: .........................................

Myself: "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways."

Miss Little Town: Hey, that's familiar!

Myself: Of course la. Isaiah55:8.

Miss Little Town: Ngeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

Right after that conversation, I started to put my FULL trust in God. It was difficult at first, because I was still anxious of His choices, as if "God I trust you but are You really sure with what You are doing?" But still, I tried to fully trust Him.

You know what, I've never been happier. :D :D :D :D :D :D

Come, put your trust in Him? His ways are better than ours. :)

And... I shall bore you with some pictures from the beach. Ngeeeee...

Love while you can, because the greatest among faith, hope and love, is LOVE. :)

Something to munch

2011-04-06T10:24:00.002+08:00

Very soon, we'll be having ESE night, where students are going to perform their dramas and compete with other groups. So, we had our rehearsal on Sunday. Yes, you heard that right, on SUNDAY, where everybody was supposed to relax at home and relax at home and ya, relax at home.

And guess where I was on SUNDAY? Exactly, at work. :'( I had my very quick lunch after church service and headed off to my workplace. Tiring. :'(

Heartbeat suddenly texted saying that he had an appointment somewhere nearby my workplace. He said, 'Give me 3 mins, I have something for you, something to munch.'

So, he dropped by at my workplace, I could see him from afar, holding something behind his back. Suddenly he waved that thing to me, I was literally jumping with joy, it's a CHOCOLATE BAR! YAY!!!! HAPPY!!!

'Chocolate can boost your energy, I know you have a tiring day today,' he said. HOW CAN I NOT MELT?!

Seeing the chocolate bar made me so happy, and didn't expect what came next.

*melting*

*still melting*

*typing while melting*

The note was way sweeter than the chocolate. Ngeeeeee.... *floating in the air* Ngeeeeeeeee...... Now, that's the reason why I feel like sixteen. Ngeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....................

Tired? Apa tired? :P My energy was instantly lifted. Lalalalalalala... :P

God, thank you. We thank YOU. YOU're awesome! :D

Love while you can and trust GOD that HE can. :)

Tulis nama atas pasir

2011-04-05T12:08:00.000+08:00

It was Heartbeat and Summer's day last Saturday, so off we went to the beach. This time around, we went to Pasir Pandak. My first time here, OVERLY EXCITED! :D

Say hi to Mr. Cecawil! :D (Cecawil is dragonfly in Iban language, he got excited about this word and kept saying it all day long)

He bullied me, so I conteng his palm. GGGRRRRR!!!

It was raining rather heavily on our way to the beach, that was the reason why the clouds were so gloomy, but surely not us! :D

We had a stroll along the beach, spent the time together, talking and laughing. It was a bliss. More to come, Heartbeat? Can? :D

Have you ever been with someone you can be very honest with? I have. :)

Love while you can and enjoy the happy sunset.

Perhaps

2011-04-04T15:30:00.005+08:00

Life has been practically hectic, but I'm enjoying every bit of it.

In the middle of work chaos, Connie, a music lecturer, suddenly contacted me to be involved in a Home Concert by the students, as a guest singer, she said. Apa lagi, I said yes la. Tehee...

Najwa was being very helpful helping me with my dress and my make up. I had a crazy week, I didn't even have time to shop for my dress (had to squeeze time) and I bathed at office toilet before the event. Kesian sik? :'(

I had class until 7pm and the concert was at 8pm, and we had to be there by 7.30pm. CRAZY! Glad that we made it on time.

Oh, did I mention Heartbeat was there too? Ngeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... :D

I'm not used to very heavy make up, I did my own make up before this. My make up was very light even when I performed on stage, so, this was kinda new. Teheee... :D I was so worried about my make up, when I saw Heartbeat, the first question I asked him, 'Don't you think I look scary?', he humbly said, 'You look great, Summer.'

*melting*

*still melting*

Okay, back to blogging. The concert was awesome, seriously! You should have been there too. Next time, you go, okay? :)

The concert was a blast, I had fun, the students did a very very very good job. Congratulations! :)

Oh, I sang only one song 'Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps', bahahahahha... :D

Do you know what's cute?

2011-03-31T17:00:00.002+08:00

When we know each other for years
As 'just friends' and nothing more
Through laughter and tears
Through victories and fears

When suddenly our hearts beat
Faster than they ever have
We don't know why
We wanna fly

When we look back at our lives
And see all the beauties that lie
Happy tears we will cry
Up above the brighter skies

When the distance and the gap
We've created with GOD
Has somehow become closer
GOD has become nearer

When we giggle and smile
How weird this seems to be
How amazing these moments truly
How we are blessed and happy

Dear GOD I pray to thee
Humbly I come on my knees
Not our will but YOURS will be
Temporary is not what we see
But eternity is what it will be

To Heartbeat from the bottom of my heart,

Summer

Love while you can, because nothing else matters.

p/s: Nah... the poem you asked for the other day. :D

Feels like sixteen

2011-03-30T11:35:00.003+08:00

Do you know how I feel right now? Exactly like a 16 year-old girl who falls head over heels for someone. Awkward, because I'm 10 years passed that stage. :P

He slept early last night because he said he had, what he called, 'mini flu'. The mini flu had turned to 'medium flu', whatever he means by that, and I bought medicine for him (I actually bought medicine for him? I actually did? Gosh, it has been a while since the last time I did that to someone. :D)

Then, he dropped by the office with something in his hand. It's KOLOK MEE! He said one of the best at 10th mile, memang SEDAP! :D :D :D :D :D

Do you know what's happy and jumping right now? Do you know what? It's my heart. My heart is happy and jumping right now. Can you see it? Can you feel it? :D

Love while you can, because your heart needs some jumping and LOTS of happiness. Ngeeeee....

On my knees

2011-03-29T11:32:00.003+08:00

I slept with a book on my chest and suddenly woke up in the middle of the night because of a missed call from the precious one. I rubbed my eyes and read his text carefully as why he replied late. I smiled, very honest. :)

I've been so blessed for the past few weeks. Extremely blessed and happy. I'm more peaceful and content with my life now, compared a few months back where I had A LOT of DRAMA in my life. Endless drama and I grew tired of it. Seriously, my life now has changed in a blink of eyes (both eyes blinking). :P

Out of nowhere, I was suddenly reminded that I didn't deserve to be this happy. I've done so many useless things in my life that make me unworthy of all these blessings. So many that I lost count. :'( I quickly prayed, on my knees, and the only words I said were, 'Forgive me, forgive me'. 2 words, repetitively, without proper conversation. 2 words. I felt so peaceful right after, it had never felt so warm. :')

I don't want to be in that situation ever again, sucks big time! I want to move forward and walk this journey with different perspective and renewed heart and mind. Come, take my hand, we walk this journey together? :)

Love while you can, because you can. :)

The power of NO

2011-03-25T19:00:00.000+08:00

People who are close with me will know how INDECISIVE I can be. Even if I have decided on something, I would still think about it over and over again, and at last I would get confused and re-think about my decision.

Too many times, way too many times, I would get upset and bitter because I just couldn't make up my mind. That's how INDECISIVE I am, or maybe was. :D

I was reflecting on my personal characters, as why do I get so confused when it comes to making decision. Why would I re-think about a decision I have made? Recently, I found the answer to all the WHYs.

It is because, I don't dare to say NO.

I was taught to SEIZE THE DAY. I was taught to NEVER LET OPPORTUNITIES WALK BY. Or so I thought.

Yes, of course, if there are opportunities, be brave and say YES, but of course, think first about the consequences. If you don't feel right about it, let it go. Why hold on to it? The problem with me was, I say YES first, then I will try to fix it. Guess what, I FAILED, 99%.

I'm tired of fixing things, I'm tired of failed plans, I'm tired of doing it MY WAY. This time around, I learn to say NO, FIRMLY. I learn to let GOD take the driver's seat. HIS way is better than mine. I'm tired of knocking down the wall that I should not have done at the first place. I will learn to say NO.

I did say NO in a few occasions. I turned down so many 'opportunities'. Instead of feeling sad and gloomy, I feel relieved. I feel happy. I feel lighter (of course not slimmer :P).

I pray today that may your decisions be GOD's decisions, because my decisions can be destructive but GOD's decision will bring blessings to you. I assure you that, because I'm extremely blessed right now. I REALLY AM. :)

Have you said 'NO' today?

Love while you can, even if you have to say NO. :)

I am Summer

2011-03-24T11:11:00.002+08:00

Wow, one thing I want to tell you today. Only one thing, God is awesome. HE works in a very funny way. HE's so freaking cool! Like so FREAKING COOL! Adoi... :D

By the way, I have a new name. I am 'Summer'. :)

Love while you can, because love can be so scarily amazing. Indeed it is!

Is it just me?

2011-03-22T15:27:00.005+08:00

Have you ever felt like you are a better you when you are with someone? Or you want to be better, not because that person is threatening you, but you just feel good about yourself. Or have you ever felt like you are at your best when you are around that person? How should I describe it a? Haishhh... Faham sik apa ku mok padah tok?

Then, right, your head is kinda light, because to many happy pills, I guess. This happy type of happy is not the get-wasted-type-of-happy, but a good one. The happy type that brings out the best in you and makes you grow closer to God. (Then you are wondering, got meh? I tell you a, GOT!)

I want more of that. Like lots and lots and lots of them! *jumping heart*

There are 3 reasons why I might be so happy:

Reason #1 - I feel good about myself being around positive people
Reason #2 - My hormones are stable (That ovulation stage when you are so ready to mate but you don't have anyone to do it with, oh well.)
Reason #3 - I'm just plain happy.

Love while you can, because love makes you wanna be a better you. :)

The reason why it's bitter.

2011-03-21T12:36:00.003+08:00

I discovered something this morning while doing my morning devotion.

The reason why some relationships are so bitter because both have conflicting values. He says 'ok', she says 'not ok', she says 'ok', he says 'not ok'.

At the end, they fight and one day they find that they are not looking at the same direction anymore. *sigh*

Love while you can, to make this world a better place.

almost not functioning

2011-03-17T10:30:00.003+08:00

I seriously need to get something out of my system so that I can function normally again. I'm mentally exhausted right now. I have not had my proper weekends for 3 consecutive weeks and I'm going away for another work-related "retreat" this weekend.

I've been staring blankly at the same task for almost 3 hours now, but no progress at all.

I still have lots of things on my table that I need to settle AND I don't even know where to start. HELP!

I.SERIOUSLY.NEED.A.BREAK.PRONTO.

Love while you can, even though work is piling. (sik da kaitan lalu juak)

Fishy

2011-03-16T11:10:00.003+08:00

Something is not quite right.
I can feel it.
Should I believe my instinct?

Love while you can but be careful not to let your heart gets trampled on.

"Love while you can"

2011-03-09T16:23:00.007+08:00

I was chatting with Azham when he suddenly asked me, "What do you mean by 'Love while you can' in your blog?"

It got me thinking for a while about what do I really mean by "Love while you can". I've been using the tagline for quite sometime every time I end my blog entry. The origin?

Let me see, I still remember sitting at home watching 'One more day' on Astro Hallmark when I first started using this tagline. I was losing and about to lose people that I love back then. I suddenly realized that I had not loved enough, or maybe I had not been very expressive about me loving other people. I had not told them that I loved them, and I didn't do anything in particular to show that I did love them.

At first, it didn't mean much to me, it was just a mere tagline. Then, it really meant much to me when I started to lose my late grandmother, whom I lovingly called Poi, as she was battling against her cancer. I still remember I was supposed to have my mid-sem break when Poi was diagnosed with Sigmoid Colon cancer final stage. It really broke my heart, as she was my favourite Poi.

She was the one who would run after me every time I tried to sneak out of the house to play with the neighbours. She was the one who held me tight when our family was at the verge of breaking. She was the one who prayed for me till she cried those loving tears. Losing her was like losing a part of my life, because she was there when I grew up. That was when I realized that I must love while I can love through my words and actions. Love while you can.

Then, I was losing my another grandmother from my dad's side. I wasn't even with her during her final moments. I couldn't even talk to her because she suddenly fell into a coma when she started to leave us. But I had not regrets at all because I know that I had loved her enough. I had done my part as a grandchild. I know that I had loved. Love while you can.

Then, I was losing someone dear to me, Rock Star. Surprisingly, we didn't fight, we didn't mock each other, we didn't curse each other when things didn't work out between us. Simply because we knew that we were just not meant to be together, why force it? We knew that the main problem was not from us. It was difficult, yes, but somehow we learned to move on and live our life to the fullest. We did love while we can, while we were still struggling, while we were still fighting for 'us'. We still care for each other, of course. We do really love while we can.

You see, losing people in my life has taught me that life is seriously short. Today, you may curse that person, the next thing you know he's gone in your life forever. Scary eh? Love while you can.

I want to leave my footprints on this earth. I want to have people commenting on my FB wall posts saying that I had loved enough while I was on earth, even when I'm no longer reading them, even when I'm gone. I want people to say that I had lived my life to the fullest that it is okay to leave. I want to be remembered that I had loved and cared enough about those around me. Love while you can.

Yes, there are times when I don't feel like loving, but hey, who am I kidding here? I'm not perfect, I'm still learning. There are times when I purely hate someone or something, but at the end of the day I feel this surge of regret crashing into me. Not fun at all. Love while you can.

What do you want people to write on your FB wall posts even when you're gone?

Love while you can, because you are first loved.

The reason why I will never be an actress

2011-03-07T09:34:00.002+08:00

Last week, Kee Man was asked to do a review on iPad. Being the most adorable colleague I was (and still am), okay you may puke now, he asked me to become a part of the montage he was doing for the review. I'm the least tech-savvy person in the world, and dealing with touch screen is seriously not my forte, but I had fun! :D

Nah... the video to prove why I am not a TV material. Muahkaaka!

Oh, love while you can! :D

p/s: I've just come back from the 3-day course. I HAD SO MUCH FUN! :D

A walk to remember

2011-03-03T12:42:00.010+08:00

Life in March is kinda hectic. Trying to keep my head above the water. Haishh...

Here are some photos I would love to share. It was CNY break and we had just come back from visiting some friends. So, next destination? Kuching Waterfront TERCINTA! :D

Love while you can...

P/s: I'm going for a 3-day course tomorrow. Take care people, MUCH LOVE!

It's my birthday!

2011-03-02T13:39:00.005+08:00

I had a blast on my birthday. No, it's not today, it was on 21st February, and it's still going on. I still receive birthday gifts even though it's March already, and another birthday dinner is on this coming Thursday, and another birthday gift is still waiting.

Do you have any idea how blessed do I feel?! I AM SO BLESSED, I TRULY AM!

On the exact day, I had birthday dinner with the girls at Novus One.

After the dinner, I called another set of friends to watch live band at The Curve. Guess who was performing? MY FORMER STUDENT WHEN I WAS A PART-TIMER. HAPPY!

Then, the following weekend, I invited another set of friends for a Birthday BBQ at George's place. WE HAD A BLAST!

I had so much fun, seriously, SO MUCH FUN! I am so thankful for all the lovely friends who celebrated my birthday with me, and also for those who were not around. I am so freaking happy. YAY!

My birthday wish this year is simple, I want to love. :)

Love while you can.

Need

2011-03-01T13:17:00.003+08:00

Right now, I am mentally and physically exhausted.

I'm in a dire need of ...

a HOLIDAY! SERIOUSLY.

Love while you can, like seriously.

Ku ingin kau tahu

2011-02-24T17:05:00.003+08:00

Heard this song at TV3, the singer was super cute! LIKE!

Love while you can. :)

Have you today?

2011-02-23T15:12:00.004+08:00

Have you told your loved ones that you love them?

If no, go and tell them. It might be too late tomorrow.
Love while you can.

p/s: I just saw my cousin's wall post. Her friend's husband had just passed away. I don't even know them, but I was overcome with sadness. It hits me that I need to tell people I love that I love them. Have you?

To dream again

2011-02-17T17:26:00.002+08:00

Let me dream again
Let me run free
Let me see that beauty in the rain
and the bees glee
Let me capture the colours
the blooming flowers and trees

Let me smile
and let me laugh
Let me giggle again like a little child
Let me love with all my heart
Let me dream again
Let me dream again

-Miss Little Town-

Love while you can, as if you have never been hurt before. :)

Invest in friendship

2011-02-16T17:33:00.006+08:00

These were taken during our Christmas visit last year. I should update my blog more often. I keep updating my blog with very old pics, but hey, daripada aku sik update lansung nak?

One thing I treasure most is FRIENDSHIP. I seriously love my friends and I might consider marrying one of them if nobody wants me. Hey! Hey! I'm just kidding! Kidding! No. Serious. :P

What kind of friends do you have? Because mine are just super awesome. Won't trade them with anything in the world. I can assure you that.

"A mirror reflects a man's face, but what he is really like is shown by the kind of friends he chooses"
Proverbs 27 : 19

Love while you can because friendship is treasure. :)

Love is all around

2011-02-14T11:02:00.008+08:00

To all my friends who had found their 'The One", congratulations. I guess Valentine's Day means more this year eh? :D Happy for all of you!

This is how I'm going to celebrate my Valentine's day - grab a friend (preferably male), grab my DSLR (preferably Nikon), drive around Kuching AND capture THE moments. Sounds like a plan eh?

Love while you can people!

p/s: If you have a date tonight, dress nicely okay? Wish you all the love in the world to be bestowed upon you and of course your lovely date. :)

pp/s: Some people are so caught up with the taboo of celebrating Valentine's Day as it is against the religion. Well, people, let's not see it as a thing that against the religion, let's put aside TODAY to show how special that special someone is. Say I LOVE YOU to them and mean it when you say it. :)

Put on your sweetest smile

2011-02-11T13:43:00.009+08:00

I attended a friend's wedding somewhere last month. At first I didn't want to go because I had a lot in my mind, but I just went (after being persuaded by other friends). I was so caught up with the things that bothered me until I saw this little boy sitting at the same table.

He was looking at me when he thought I didn't notice him. When I caught him looking at me, he smiled innocently. I smiled back and he laughed. I laughed and smiled happily at him. You know what I thought of when he smiled? "Hey old lady, don't be so grumpy. Come, I make you smile!"

... and I smiled. :')

Love while you can even though it might hurt you sometimes.

Dear someone

2011-02-10T13:04:00.007+08:00

Dear Someone (With the capital S because you are important),

You've been awesome while you were here and while you were there. Far and near, I know you've been awesome. Things seemed to sail smoothly, with no worries and we were happy. I'm not saying that I am not happy now, but we were happier, weren't we? :)

Our conversation few days ago shows how matured we are. We've been through a lot and I'm glad we didn't jump into decisions that might hurt either one of us. People say, just follow your heart. But heart can be very deceiving. Then, some people say, follow your head then, but head can be so blunt.

Heart and head, they don't stay on the same ground. One wants to please and be happy, and another one wants things to be right and logic. Conflicting, indeed it is. We did a lot of thinking, we asked our hearts. Still we stayed there and waited. Until one day, we decided to let go. We didn't even start yet we let go.

You said, 'Trust me sweetheart, you'll find someone better. I guess I'm not the one for you.' You see, 'someone better' is not what I'm looking for, but 'someone right'. What right do I have to find 'someone better' when you are good enough yourself? What right do I have to even compare? Who am I to get myself 'someone better'? No, not 'someone better', but the 'right one'.

We are from two different worlds. I might suffocate in yours, you might choke in mine. In the end, we might kill each other. Before we even have that intention to kill, I guess it's better to stop now, eh? Well, if we are meant to be, we are meant to be. Nevertheless, I'm happy to know you. :)

From the bottom of my heart, thank you, THANK YOU for all the beautiful times spent together, for the lovely book you bought for me, for the pretty pair of shoes I wear to work, for the loving care, for the tender touch, for the free trip to your beautiful island, for the selfless distant calls you made every single day and night, for the days you made me laugh and cry, and last but not least, thank you for being YOU. :)

Don't you realize people are closer when they are letting go?

Love while you can. :)

DIY - Bling your tank top!

2011-02-09T13:45:00.002+08:00

I bought this blue top for less than RM20. It looked extraordinarily boring. So, I thought I should bling it up.

These are the things you need.

It took me less than an hour to do this.... and WALAAA! You have an expensive looking top. (kunun!)

Love while you can.... :)

What do I want?

2011-02-07T11:49:00.004+08:00

I've messed up a lot of times in my life which leads to me being confused and shaky. MANY TIMES! It has become a pattern.

I've been meditating about my life, asking God and asking myself, WHAT DO I REALLY WANT? When I asked myself this question, surprisingly, I didn't know what to answer. All this while, it has been like grabbing whatever that runs before me and tell the world, "Yes, this is what I want". But is that what I really want?

I'm the kind of person who is afraid to say 'No' because it might be my last chance, afraid to say what I want in case it might hurt others, afraid to do this and that because it might hurt me. I was overcome with fear. In the end, I am left with too many choices that I can't even move.

I was asked that question last night, 'What do you really want?' I grabbed my sketch book and wrote all my 'I want's'. Specific 'I want's'. I came up with a list, I might add some more to that. :) Then, I was told again, 'You know yourself better'. It hit me like a tsunami. I've been asking people to understand me, to know me, but do I really know myself? Do I know myself better than you?

You know what, I know myself better now. I'm comfortable in my own skin. I'm being honest with myself. I know what I want, and what I don't want. I know what I'm OK with and what I'm not OK with. It took me years to realize this. YEARS. I guess it comes with age. There will be time when the turbulence has finally subsided, you sit with yourself, have a slow talk with yourself. Only then, you open up to yourself and reveal your true self.

I'm not saying I really know myself now, I'm still learning to know myself better than you do. If I don't know myself, who else would?

Have you found out what you really want?

Love while you can.

p/s: I made this for my colleague. :)

3 years

2011-02-01T12:30:00.005+08:00

Thank you for always being there whenever I need you
You never judged me, no matter how harsh, no matter how weak

My words can be

You would always listen and never run away
Thank you for not giving up on me though there were times when I said 'I had enough!'
3 years together, through ups and downs
Through break ups and make ups
Through parties and disasters
You've been there, always

To my little blog, Miss Little Town, Happy 3rd birthday.

Love while you can.

YOU are truly my only hope

2011-01-31T15:08:00.002+08:00

I feel like at the lowest point of my life now. I'm out of control, I'm losing the grip of life that has been keeping me intact to the ground. I'm tired of life drama. I'm tired of being trampled. I'm tired of being tired. I'm plainly tired.

I feel like going away and start all over again, from scratch. Help me. :'(

There's only one thing I need, only one thing.

Love while you can.

To my heart and mind.

2011-01-31T10:04:00.002+08:00

Be at peace my chaotic heart.
Be silent my noisy mind.

Love while you can.

Aging gracefully

2011-01-28T10:53:00.003+08:00

My alarm sounded early this morning. 'Mum's birthday' it said. So, I called her. On the phone with mum.

Me: Mummy! Happy birthday!
Mum: Thank you.
Me: How old are you now mummy?
Mummy: 47. 3 more years to go to 50. YAY!

Any resemblance?

Love while you can. :)

Now what?!

2011-01-21T10:39:00.004+08:00

I'm angry. Yes, I am!!!

By the time I decided to avoid drama in my life, another one is on its way to play its casts. It's scary how unpredictable life can be. At one time, I feel like on the top of everything, and at one time, I feel like being trampled on the ground. What kind of life is this? It IS life. What do I expect? A smooth-sailing one? DREAM ON!

I guard my steps and heart so that I won't fall into the same trap over and over and over and over again. Eventually I did. Don't I learn anything? Seriously? Like, SERIOUSLY?! What kind of game is being played on me?!

I am so angry that I don't have the ultimate words to let them out. I don't. All I did was sitting at the very corner of my life and cried the night away. What the heck is wrong with everything?! GAH! AAARRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

BANG! BANG! KABOOOM! KABOOOM! BUZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!! SPLASSSHH!!!!

Fuhhhh... That's better.

Oh well, love while you can.

Put your records on

2011-01-18T10:27:00.001+08:00

"Three little birds sat on my window, and they told me I don't need to worry"

Love while you can... :)

Spring of life.

2011-01-17T11:20:00.000+08:00

Love is like a spring of life.

Congrats to my dearest friends Ju & Paul! :)

Love while you can...

What makes a woman happy?

2011-01-14T12:44:00.004+08:00

A pretty pair of shoes to many wonderful places.
An inspiring book to feed the soul.

Thank you. :)
Love while you can...

Not anymore

2011-01-13T13:23:00.004+08:00

I was afraid to live. Because I might die.
I was afraid to dream. Because I might be disappointed.
I was afraid to love. Because I might be broken.
I was afraid to move on. Because I might regret.
I was afraid to be "I am". Because I might be unloved.
Now, not anymore.

One thing I learn today, the more I fear, the more boring my life is. Once I stop to move on, I actually stop to live.

(One day, I might forget what I wrote today. Please remind me?)

Love while you can... :)

Life missions

2011-01-10T19:12:00.007+08:00

I have two ultimate missions in life now.

Numero uno = Be happy!

Numero dos = Avoid drama!

I've no idea why my life has been so DRAMATIC lately. I should write a book or something. Yes, I'm teaching drama but that doesn't mean I like my life to be dramatic. It's tiring and full of stress. Therefore, I would live by these two missions. I choose to be happy. I can't say no to drama, but maybe I can have less drama in my life.

Oh, do you realize that how often I use the word "drama" and "dramatic" lately.

NEVERTHELESS! I'm glad that the drama happened. It changes the direction of my life. Well, no matter how bad I want to avoid drama, I'm sure things happened for reasons. I can see the reasons why it happened. I'm glad I was strong enough to face it.

I would like to apologize for all the things that I did that might hurt people out there. I'm not perfect, so are you. But I will try to make things right the best I can. :) I will right?

Oh by the way, I'm a notch happier now. Tehee...

Love while you can. :) :) :)